When hurt turns red and a piece of your heart is missing. When the cold bites deep and you’ve got that feeling like you just got out of surgery. When the only way to stay sane is to concentrate on anything else but how you feel. When you count the tiles in the ceiling. When you push the earphones closer. When you remember every nuance of every word of every time. When all this happens. Embrace it. Feel every feeling. Cry every tear. Sob every sob. Because this is what it feels like to have loved.

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Saturday, April 3rd 2010 1:12am

It’s a quarter after one, I’m a little drunk and I need you now…

I don’t know what the fuck is going on. I went two whole months of cold turkey from you and I was slowly healing and here you are, back in my life, and me, being weak, I just can’t cope with it.

I hate how I’m the one who initiates calls and texts with you now. I hate that I feel like I have to have a reason to call you. It’s not like before. I can’t just call you because I feel like it.

Blah blah blah. I think so much. I just need to stop thinking for once in my life. Just STOP THINKING.