December 2009
31 posts
“Sometimes, there are things in our life that aren’t meant to stay....”
nostalgic.
spent the last two hours reading through some of our old msn chatlogs. they reminded me how well we got along. how you were able to make me smile and laugh even when i didn’t want to. how you were able to make me a tiny bit smarter everyday by throwing random facts at my way. how you were always there to listen to me rant and complain. how you always clicked on links i sent you even if they...
so many things remind me of you… everywhere i go, everywhere i am… things i see, hear, say, touch, smell… it’s almost ridiculous. and what’s more ridiculous is the fact that you’re probably going on with your life completely fine and here i am, still a mess.
i hate being in Kitchener because everything about this town reminds me of you. i’m still trying...
Time to drop all my worries. Hellooooo Florida.
Never could imagine life without you From the...
Mistake.
I shouldn’t have called you. You didn’t have anything nice to say, it was a conversation full of awkward silences and unfamiliarity. I don’t know you anymore… I really don’t.
“All I do is lay around, two ears full of tears from looking at your face on the...”
What I'd give for things to be normal again...
You used to talk to me like I was the only one around. We used to have this figured out; We used to breathe without a doubt. When nights were clear, you were the first star that I’d see. We used to have this under control, We never thought. We used to know. At least there’s you, and at least there’s me. Can we get this back? Can we get this back to how it used to be?
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Disappointment?
I waited the entire day. Twenty four hours. Waited for you to ACKNOWLEDGE my birthday. Hoped for a midnight call, text, e-mail… anything! Didn’t happen. Okay, well, maybe throughout the day sometime? Nope. 11:59PM? … No. Nothing. You had twenty four hours to take two seconds out of your life and text me two simple little words and it didn’t happen. I guess deep down...
I barely remember what your voice sounds like.
“I don’t wanna dream about all the things that never were…”
Keeping busy.
I really don’t have the time to be writing in this right now, but a short entry won’t hurt. I’m busy as hell. Maybe even too busy, but this is what I intended. On top of my full course load and DECA exec, I picked up many hours of WORK and with the crunch of final exams and assignments, I’m really starting to burn under the pressure. With all this on my plate, I think...
Suppose we were happy, Suppose it was true, And...
A part of me wishes you would call again. But I...
Is it so wrong for me to want to know what you’re doing and how you’re doing? I went from knowing every little detail about you to absolutely nothing.
"Let's go out this weekend. I will pull off the...
I cannot believe you just wrote that. What is this Lorenzo von Matterhorn shit? You know what bothers me most? The fact that you’re just able to get up and move on just like that. Three days. I guess that’s all it takes you, right?
Distractions.
It’s so much easier to forget my problems when I’m with friends. Just had sushi with Nicky and now she’s taking a shower. It just sucks cuz I know that when she’s gone, I’ll be depressed again… but still. I don’t know what I’d do without her. <3
“As of 11:43am, I will not have heard from you for 24 hours. Feels like so much...”
I can’t sleep, I just can’t breathe, ...
Feels so right...
I tried so hard all day not to call and text you. I thought I made it through the day. Then you just had to call me and remind me how soothing and therapeutic your voice is. Your voice just reminds me of all our conversations in the last three years and I couldn’t help but cry, and cry, and cry. When I’m on the phone with you, everything feels so right, but it shouldn’t. I...
